CHICAGO (AP) -- Oprah Winfrey feels "like a fat cow." She writes in her magazine "O" that she now weighs 200 pounds and is no longer eating the way she should. She says she's "mad" at herself and "embarrassed" for letting herself go. She says she looks at photos of when she was thinner and asks herself, "How did I let this happen again?" Though she says she's develped "a fear of working out," Winfrey writes that she still hopes to lose weight. She says she'll start early next month during "Best Life Week" on her talk show.