For three long and emotional weeks they couldn't talk to anyone, but now jurors from the 'Booger Red' Kelly case are speaking out.
Yesterday, they handed down the maximum punishment of life in prison to Patrick 'Booger Red' Kelly. And, in a story you will only see on KLTV 7, Courtney Lane sits down with a couple members of the jury. They share just how difficult it was to hear the third case in the Mineola child sex ring.
For them, the hardest part was listening to the children testify for hours and hours, in detail, of how they were sexually assaulted.
"The entire jury panel was breaking down in tears, welling up and just emotionally distraught," juror Todd Ressel said.
"Hearing those testimonies and learning of the swingers and stuff it's very sickening, very emotional, it's been an emotional roller coaster," said juror Dede Graham.
For nearly three weeks the trial drug on, with their lips having to remain sealed.
"You can't watch TV, you can't read a newspaper, you can't talk to each other and you had to hold all of this inside and it's like you just wanted to talk about it," said Todd.
The defense called a number of witnesses to the stand, trying to prove that Booger Red was innocent.
"I kind of believed them for a minute, but then when the prosecutor got up there and kind of caught them all, their stories, I mean none of their stories matched," said Dede.
To the question of, "When Booger Red took the stand, what were you thinking? Were you expecting that?" Todd answered, "I was surprised. I expected him not to. I think he handled himself quite well, actually, but it came down to - I had to think to myself, if I was truly guilty of something that I did, I would do everything I could to get out of the situation."
It was a hard place to be in, knowing a man's life and the future of the child victims was in their hands. That's why Todd Ressel says they also had to rely on their faith.
"Each time that we had to make a decision we all stood up and said a prayer, all 12 of us. We felt like that was the right thing to do and that we were led to the right decision and ask for guidance," said Todd.
Like the victims, the memory and details of this case will live on forever in these jury members. As hard as it was, they say it's made them even more grateful for what they have.
"I just appreciate life and my kids. Everyday I just want to come home and hold my kids," said Dede.
Jurors say there were inconsistencies in the defense's case and that testimonies of their witnesses didn't add up. In the initial vote, they say one jury member believed Kelly was innocent, and they had to go back and re-hash evidence in the case.
But within 2 hours, all 12 agreed Booger Red Kelly was guilty.